| Oh how soon things change.... |
[Oct. 16th, 2005|10:10 pm] |
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| | Something Corporate- I Won't Make You | ] |
Wow remember that entry disregard it all together, both possibilities fell through at just about the same time...my luck..oh yea? it gets better.
Here we go Situation 598658489658949 for Katie oh and it sounds so familiar too hahahah....OK so about a month ago a guy that I go to school without IMed me out of the blue and we started talking. We hit it off pretty good and chilled one night and things went well that I could tell. Well every weekend it seems we spend one night together. He's a nice guy and he's great to hang out with, but during the weeke we never see each other. It's like I'm only good on the weekends and not good enough to be with his friends at his place. He always comes down to my apartment, but yet he seems interested in me, so it's confusing. Well a week ago I went to providence to visit one of my good friends from home. Well one night i was up talkin to one of his roommates and we had an instant connection. We were up for like 6 hours to talkin about ours lives and things goin on in them. Well one slgiht problem with the situation. He has a girlfriend...yep uh huh, oh but the situation gets worse. He is attracted to me. Now him and his girlfriend have been on the rocks for a long time now and he feels that from meetin me that its time that they break up, that I could make him happy. Well the situation is very sketchy because they fight and then they make up and he spends the night at her place. I don't think that I would be able to handle the situation again. If he dated me the whole time he would be thinking of her or she would spend the whole time tryin to get him back. It would hurt me way too much and because I have been in this situation before i already know the ending and shouldn't even let myself get involved. Wow the first guy that actually goes after me and he already has a girlfriend and is emotionally unavailable. Thats just how my luck runs, yep....so i have come to a conclusion.....
Those who can't do relationships....fix relationships....since it seems i fix them so well...yep ok im done.... |
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| OMG I wrote another LiveJournal entry..lol |
[Aug. 22nd, 2005|08:56 am] |
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| | Cut Up Angels- THe Used | ] |
OK so i haven't written in almost 6 months, but figured I needed advice...so im in a similar predicament that I'm usually in with girl meets boy....ok so let's begin the story..Names will be changed for obvious reasons...so here we go....
I met Joe (name changed) through a friend and we became really good friends. We never were "boyfriend/girlfriend", but we did see a lot of each other. Things were goin great and then i left for a trip and Joe started talkin to xgf again and then he got back together with her. Of course i wasn't happy hearin that, but there wasnt anything that I could do. Well I hadn't heard from Joe in a month and then he called me out of the blue and we started talking again. At this point Joe was still with his gf and things were not good at all. But since they had had a history and dated for a very long time he couldnt just break up with her. Well i helped joe and was there for joe with his problems with her. Well Joe had been keepin it from her that he had seen me and was still calling/ talking to me. I understood that cuz she'd go crazy if she heard that he was talkin to other girls (crazy i know), but let alone me someone that he somethin with for a lil while, while they were broken up. Now meanwhile of course i still care about Joe and won't just let that die out, well in this time I meet Chris (name changed). Chris is very sweet and caring and I spent like week hangin out with Chris. I work with Chris, and thats how we know each other. Well a few days ago something sparked with Chris and I, only he left to go back to college the next day and he has a really good friend that I talk to that he goes to school with that really likes him. So thats a difficult situation...now back to Joe...well last night I had called Joe cuz he had told me to call him, well he didnt answer..but my cell phone started ringing and it was his phone..only it wasnt it was his gf. Im not gonna get into deatil about it but i was being as nice as i could to her, but all she wanted to be was a bitch to me. Tellin me to stay away from him, not to call him, blah blah blah..well it ended in her gettin her way with me, but not her way with rich. I told her i wouldnt call Joe anymore and she hung up on me...only he got pissed at her and told her he couldn't take it anymore, her insecurities. Well where does he run..straight to me. I talked to him for half the night. I kept wantin to tell Joe not to deal anymore with her and just date me since things were so much simpler with him and i and im not pyscho and overprotective.
well i still can't get the nerve up to tell him my feelings , but then again there's Chris. He's so sweet and not full of drama, but then there is his friend that really likes him. On the other hand Joe is always on my mind....i dunno what to do..HELP!!! lol |
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| Ok so maybe i lied..... |
[Mar. 3rd, 2005|05:28 pm] |
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| | Shimmy Shimmy Quarter Turn- Hellogoodbye | ] |
so maybe im not done with guys...I found one to change my outlook on them, but we'll see how well this weekend goes. I dont want another disappoint. I don't think i could take another failure if this doesn't work. I biggest problem is that he's a senior in college, and who wants to have a bf or gf durin that last bit of fun u can before the real world. ::sigh:: He's not at all like any guy ive ever dated/met.. After this weekend i'll know.... |
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| OOO how i have missed rantin... |
[Feb. 15th, 2005|08:23 am] |
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| | Your Own Disaster- TBS | ] |
FUCK U!!!!! ok now that feels a lil better. Alright so im through forever with guys. Never again, ever. Im sick of everythin i get put through for a lil amusement. So yea this kid that lives upstairs has been tryin since the first weekend of school to chill with me. Every single time i turned him down because he seemed like the classic asshole. Finally i talked to him Saturday night and he convinced me to come up. So it's 3:30am and we watched dodgeball. Now in our conversation I told him I was not lookin for another one night stand and his reply "who said anythin about a one-night stand? Let's see where things go." So i was like hmmm alright so maybe he's not such a bad guy. So he and I stay up talking till about 6:45. A lil kissing/making out but thats it. Nothin major at all happened. He showed me a side to him that I had never seen before. I won't write everythin he said but it was all a load of bullshit. Well to continue the story....the next day he doesn't wake up till about 4:30pm. So he finally came online and i imed him cuz he said last night that i was comin up again..so i told him i would be up after the uconn game. Well i knock on the door and he lets me in, but he's on the phone. Well when he gets off..he's like i have to go do math ill come find u later when i get back...so umm yea nope never did..so i was like hmmm alright thats kewl..idc..So later on in the day i see him in his room and i walk by cuz i was on my way to class and i just wave and he looks at me. Whatever...so then things start goin off in my head..he's not signed on anymore....to make a long story short....he blocked me...now i find this a lil weird...1 he's the one who got me to go up and chill with him 2 it's not like we had sex or anythin like that....and 3 he lives upstairs..its not like i don't see him EVERYDAY anyway...what can he do wear his harry potter invisibility cloak everytime he sees me....blahhhhh so yea im finished with guys.....thats it im sick of the games and the bullshit....u all are assholes and thats final... |
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| oh no it happened again.... |
[Jan. 16th, 2005|02:59 am] |
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| | The Greatest Fall of All Time- Matchbook Romance | ] |
WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF!!!!! Ahhhh...i like him..he's awesome and fun and cool and i can't have him....just talkin to him makes me smile, i chilled with him today and it felt normal like i have known him for a while now. Im settin myself up to fall...i just know it...i mean on monday im back at school and he's still here...he works just about everyday so how could he see me other than when im home on a few weekends... PATHETIC that is what i am... and i know he just wants a friendship..i just know cuz thats all it can ever be...blahh im done rantin...
I didn't know why, but didn't ask questions
because it was the first time in my life, yeah the first time in my life
Where I, did something right. I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time.... |
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| much needed updating |
[Jan. 3rd, 2005|01:56 am] |
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| | Numb- Linkin Park | ] |
The *real me* is a small town girl with her levis on and an open heart..wish i could save the world like i was super girl.....
I've been doin a lot of thinkin while i was at julie's house this weekend and since i got home from WNEC. Bein at college has taught me a lot about myself and the kind of person i have become...and its not something i like. I never used to care what people thought about me and since i got to college i base everythin off of what other people think. Any decision i make it's like i ask myself..what will people think of me now and will they like me still? I started to go to the bar because i thought i could make new friends there...but those aren't the kind of friends that i want to make...I made that mistake through tim. It's like i don't know who i am anymore. Im not the same katie that i used to be and i don't like it. I never used to be a slut and now i kind of am at school. For what..to prove to a bunch of people that i can be cool? i hate this...and once again an example of lettin things get to me. I used to be able to just brush off anythin and everythin and now i just can't. It's so hard for me because i feel like i let everythin important in my life slip away... i wish i was able to turn the clocks back and changed everythin but i can't. I just want to be the old katie again. I liked bein innocent and clueless...i don't like what i have become at all.... ::sigh:: |
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| sucky sucky |
[Dec. 26th, 2004|11:25 pm] |
woooo this is gonna be a great new years......spendin it with my parents...yippeeee
yeah if anyone wants to take me out of my misery that would be greatly appreciaited if anyone has anythin goin on please fill me in... |
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| updates updates |
[Dec. 14th, 2004|10:55 pm] |
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| | cheerful | ] |
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| | Ex-Miss- NFG | ] |
woot woot comin home in 2 days...sooooo excited to see everyone back home. It feels like forever since i have seen a lot of my friends in a while. Im especially happy to see the two taylors....The two of them have helped me through a lot and i can't wait to see them. Taylor O i haven't seen since Thanksgivin break, but that was only for like 2 hrs, but the last time we really hung out was the day before she left for Penn State. Taylor M. i haven't seen since fall break in the beginnin of October. A very long time and I can't wait to hang out with her on fri. We a goin to lunch and then she is goin to help me Christmas shop, yayy spendin money hehhehe. Let's see who else haven't I seen..can't wait to see nicole again and prolly hang out with her a couple days. Adam and i have a lot of catchin uo to do since its been a long time since we had a heart to heart convo. Justin i have seen a few times, but i still want to see him. The Texas Hold'em crew i can't wait to see and win some money and see them again. Of course Christine and the rest of the Pomperaug Gymnastics team...GYMNASTIC FANTASTIC, Smitty of course cuz she is smitty and also missy cuz she is just crazy and i love her...but other than that..i'm not sure if i want to see anyone else...
Well christmas shoppin is goin to be semi easier this year because i don't have 2 groups of people to shop for....here is my list..
*Julie
*Jason
*Taylor O
*Taylor M
*Justin
*Adam
*Nicole
*Christine
*Smitty
*The fam
So much shorter list than last year....hmmm what to get these people...only taylor M will know except she won't know what she is gettin cuz that just ruins the surprise hehehehe. I don't expect anythin in return by the way because i love doin nice things for my friends because they have taken care of me in the past....
Back to english and math studyin for finals the next 2 days...lova ya kisses :o) |
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| woooooo!!!! |
[Aug. 9th, 2004|12:32 pm] |
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| | Seventy times 7- Brand New | ] |
I'M GOIN TO WARPED TOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| Wow been a long time... |
[Aug. 5th, 2004|12:29 am] |
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| |  crazy | ] |
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| | So Cold- Breaking Benjamin | ] |
Alright i know its been a long time since i wrote. Im sorry. I was away bein a JC at a camp in New York. It was a blast and I met so many new people and came away with a lot of friends and people I'll keep in touch with the rest of it...especially one. He really made my time there a lot of fun. Too bad he lives in frickin Oklahoma.
Well I got my housin assignment for next year and im not too happy. I had put in for the new dorm at my school, but i got stuck in one of the old dorms with no AC. My roommate i have talked to and she seems a lil strange but o well i'll give it a try. Although there is a plus to the dorm. Let's see there are 4 floors in my dorm and i am on the 3rd. The other 3 floors are guys. So i only have to put up with 34 girls....thank god since i really don't get along with too many. I get along with guys sooooo much better. I guess i'll be able to deal with my dorm. :o)
Monday I was with Taylor M for the night and she wanted to go to the mall to see this hot topic guy. I took her and her brother and we ran into Dana, Kait, and Justin. I guess it wasn't so bad, atleast i didn't get shot. Mostly ignored the whole time, but i expected that and plus that's better than gettin screamed at. Last night I worked at subway and then watched a movie with my mom. It was so cute and kinda reminded me of my life a lil. Not gonna say the title, but i almost cried. Tonight I just watched The Perfect Score cuz my plans fell through, but atleast I got a 2 hr nap out of it.
I dunno sorry Im just on a writin spree. I have been emailin people like crazy the past hour and now i still had an urge to write, so i thought I would update everyone with what's been goin on. OK well sleepy time for me....night night everyone!
MY MP3 PLAYER COMES TOMORROW YAYYYYYY!!!!! |
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| nice try.... |
[Jul. 2nd, 2004|02:32 pm] |
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| | 22- burns out bright | ] |
This entry won't be very long but just wanted to say...nice try justin and dave tryin to put the blame on tichy...when it was u, justin, who sent that text message to me and dave good effort on tryin to cover for him....i applaud u both....and stalkin dave??? where the fck did u get that from?? and u say my head is screwed up..wow whatever just say it to my face if u r gonna talk trash about what an "awful" person i am.... |
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| One for EVERYONE to read.. |
[Jun. 30th, 2004|12:33 am] |
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| | 3 evils- Coheed and Cambria | ] |
OK well this is an entry that everyone is going to be able to read cuz i want everyone's opinion on this question and answer honestly and its pretty simple......
What do u think of me as a person?
Just everyone comment to that question and leave ur name....thank u :o) |
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| question.... |
[May. 24th, 2004|11:58 pm] |
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Does someone wanna make me a layout...i have been tryin these past couple days and i remember the code for my old journal but this is completely different and i want somethin new....if anyone would like to leave a comment and i'll let u know what i would like....thanks... :o) |
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| sorry had to do it... |
[May. 12th, 2004|08:49 am] |
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| | miles apart- Yellowcard | ] |
Comment to be added :o) |
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| NFG new song!! |
[May. 6th, 2004|08:42 am] |
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| | All downhill from here- NFG | ] |
Well i was searching plyrics and i came across the track listing for New Found GLory's new CD Catalyst and this song really hit me..i think all of you can refer to it..its called "No News Is Good News"....enjoy...
( Click it if you dare...lol :o) ) |
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| i dunno what's gonna be said.... |
[May. 2nd, 2004|09:18 pm] |
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| | The vibrator on my phone | ] |
OK well most of you that i have talked to in the past couple of days prolly have noticed a change in my attitude. I have actually been umm what's the word...happy? I dunno really what changed everythin, but things right now just feel really good. For once I'm not arguin with anyone, im not feelin depressed, or angry with anyone. I dunno its a good feeling...although there is some guilt in the back of my mind. Even though Im not the one fightin there are other people who are..so i feel bad. Like Taylor and Justin....I hate how they are not able to compromise with each other. Seein them disagree makes me sad that im happy at a time like this. Also with the recent break up with justin and dana. I feel horrible about that because I have tried my best to keep them both happy and help fix things and this time i couldn't work my magic and i feel really bad, because both aren't happy right now. The only good thing that has come out of this whole thing is that justin and i are startin to get back to bein friends and havin carefree conversations like we used to, which is nice. I missed them a lot since we really haven't had a conversations like this since like a year ago. Hopefully things can continue smoothly like this.....
OK so friday i worked on my info tech project with my group until 6pm and then spent the night at home cuz i was way to tired to go out and plus i had to be up at 6am to be at UCONN Waterbury for 7am. Well i went to bed around almost 3 so that didn't help. Well the expo didn't go as well as i would have liked, but thats ok. I still had fun. Umm then i went and got my new phone yaaaaayyyy it's so pretty.... Its an LG4400B, its not camera cuz my parents said no to that, but its still fun...cuz it has vibrating alerts..... :o) and kewl ringtones....which they are set to Until the Day I die- SOTY and Ocean Avenue- Yellowcard...and I already downloaded 2 games...Bejewled and Snood...haha remember when everyone was obessessed with that game.... Then i rented a couple of chick flicks for my mom and I to watch together and then spent the night talkin to everyone. I met a kewl guy too. His name is Dave and he's a friend of Justin's and I think he's really nice. We talked for a couple hours and got to know each other...He's really nice :o) ok then today i worked...eh it was another boring day at subway i guess nothin spectacular went on. Came home and have pretty much not done anythin except talk to justin and adam on and off the whole rest of the night. |
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| oooo more questions....haha |
[Apr. 30th, 2004|08:55 am] |
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| | fans | ] |
I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 [three] questions, no more, no less. ask me anything you want. then i want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this, allowing your friends [including myself] to ask you anything.
Alright well i didn't take this from just one person's journal since all of my friends have it.....ask me anythin u want and please ANYONE who reads this go ahead and ask me anythin, anythin at all..... :o) ok im out the bell is gonna ring... |
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| ooo question time..... |
[Apr. 28th, 2004|12:32 am] |
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| | Clock is down- Letterkills | ] |
Answer this question the best that you can for me:
Have I done any good for you?
(simple as that...just comment and answer that question with as much as u can think of....) |
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